Loved Bertholdt x Reader

I was sitting up in a tree, on one of the tallest branches. I was watching the silent forest; the dark, silent forest...The night air was so damn cold…It was cutting me like thousands of knives. But I deserved it. I deserved it all: all the pain and the grief in the world, because I was a traitor. I betrayed my friends and my family, and the worst of all, I betrayed the whole humanity. Like…Like they meant nothing to me…
And only for one man…
Tears start running down my cheeks, but I don’t try to stop them. It’s no use…
“Hey.”
His calm, soothing voice. The voice I learned to love. His voice…However, I didn’t turn my face to him. I didn’t want him to see me like that.
“Are you going to stay here all night?”
He puts an arm around me. Oh God, he’s so warm…
“Well, it’s not like we have a place to stay at, but-“
I suddenly throw my arms around him, crying with hiccups. At first, he is surprised, but then he returns my embrace. He whispers loving words in my ear as he rubs my back. Slowly, I stop crying, and my hiccups turn to sighs.
“Oh Bert, what have I done?”
He pulls away a little only to look at my face, and I think that I’m about to cry again…
Then, his face gets closer to mine, until our lips are touching. At first, it’s soft-just like a feather. Then we kiss more passionately, our tongues into a dance I know he’s gonna win. My arms are around him, and I hug him so hard that I have the impression his heart and soul will be pushed into me…Because I am empty on the inside…
Suddenly, he breaks the kiss and sighs.
“You’re crying again.”
He sighed, then looked away for a moment. My arms dropped to my sides. I turned my back to him...Before I made this choice, his presence made me feel better in just a few seconds, and now…
“Here, take this.”
I was surprised when he put his jacket around me. And more surprised when he took me in his large arms, and held me to his chest. His chin was resting on my head, and his hands were holding mine. Slowly, but certainly, I started to feel warm and sleepy.
“Bert, no.”
“Why no?”
His voice sounded a bit disappointed.
“Because *cat yawn* I am a horrible person. And you’re going to be cold, baka.”
“Don’t worry about that. And no, you’re not. Right now, you’re a sleepy one.”
He shifted in another position, so I would sit more comfortable. My eyelids started to drop; in a few minutes (seconds maybe) I would be asleep.
“Bert, Annie and Reiner will come after us. And they’ll *yawn* disturb us again.”
“They won’t. I know it; now go to sleep.”
He kisses the tip of my ear, and slowly murmurs something.
“You know…I was sure they were going to torture you because of our relationship. Gosh, I was so worried…”
He kissed my neck, then gently bit it.
“But now you’re here.”
That was the only thing I heard before I drifted off to sleep.
Maybe…Maybe I chose right.
No. I was sure I did.
I had all sorts of negative feelings…But right then I felt loved.